I CAN DO PUSH UPS!!!!!!

So, life-long problem for me... push ups.  Never could do them no matter how hard I tried.  Until now, that is.  Five rounds into 21 day fix and fix extreme and I can do 10 push ups!!! Whoop WHOOP!!!!  I am SO celebrating this as a huge non scale victory.  Huge as in I deserve a glass of wine, but I'm not going to because I've had one too many carbs today, huge.  And that's huge!

On another note, I have been failing pretty miserably this round(five) at my workouts.  I have had so much going on this month with the holidays and emotional drama that my workouts and eating have been seriously suffering.  Out of 30 days this month, I worked out a grand total of.......wait for it......................15.  That's an F.  A big... fat... F.   But then, I got this brilliant idea to weigh myself the other day!  I squinced my eyes as I stepped onto the scale dreading the number I would see.  I was sure I was going to be up the five pounds I had just lost, but when I opened them, I couldn't believe the scale.  I had lost weight!  What the heck!?!?!  I lost weight going through three Thanksgivings.  Holy cow is my body awesome!  I'm going to try and do much better with this December round.  Still round 5, but starting again.  This round 5 is going to take me two and a half months at this rate!  Lame...  lame...lame Lisa.  Gotta get my act together.

I have noticed that I'm getting so strong I am no longer shaking in a lot of the 60 second exercises.  It's so cool being able to firmly plant myself and do the workout and still feel strong at the end.  Beats feeling like I'm going to puke or collapse, that's for sure!

And finally, I have a grand total of 7 pounds left to lose to be at my pre-baby weight.  I'm very proud.  I'ts hard to believe I'm almost in the 140s again.  Honestly, I didn't think I was going to see them again, EVER.  I had almost resigned to the fact that I have five kids and this is my new mom body that just won't ever look like that again.  I'm so happy to be proving myself wrong.



Until later,

Happy sweating!!!

Down on myself

It's been just over two weeks since I finished round four of the 21 day fix program.  Two rounds of 21 day fix and 2 rounds of 21 day fix extreme.  I'm so proud of how far I've come, as seen in my pictures from my last post.  However, stress from work, five kids, single parenthood and starting my own business has led to massive frustration/self-doubt and has seriously derailed me.  I have learned a lot from the last two weeks.  One thing, I noticed that when things get tough, I am the first person who gets put on the back burner (I do it to myself) and every priority of mine is sidelined to make room for everyone else.  I think it's called Mommy Syndrome.  Take care of everyone but yourself...  And I'm so not okay with this!  I'm so stinkin' frustrated with myself and not feeling like I deserve it enough to make a time each day that is MINE and ONLY mine.  I love the results I'm getting from the program and I loved feeling empowered by seeing myself physically strong.  Another part of me however, is just plain lazy and uses the above reasons as excuses, because honestly, some days I could squeeze it in, but I find a reason to put it off until later and later never comes.

I'm also having a really hard time eating clean and sticking to my portion containers.  Lately, I have absolutely no self-control and eat anything and everything that I want.  I think to myself "why can't I have it?" or "this program is too restricting".  Just a couple excuses...  After I eat it, I feel like crap for being so weak, which has been a great eye-opener.  I know exactly what I'm going to do for Lent, eat clean for 21 days straight.  It's a great type of self-denial and serious growth when you can deny yourself an indulgent food.  And it's not like I'm going to starve myself, it's just having an awareness and discipline to say no.  I'm excited yet scared of failure to start tonight with strengthening my will power and sticking to it.  I know it will happen and when it does, the results are going to happen like crazy!

So... tonight is the night that I am deciding I am important!  I am worthy!  I am deserving of a hot mom body!  And I'm going to stop being lazy and cheating myself.  Everyone else can give me one hour a day to myself and they'll survive.  They really will.  And I'll survive sticking to a workout schedule and clean eating.  I won't starve.  I really won't.

Happy sweating!

My photo of inspiration for the week.