Mind Games

I'm not sure if I'm starving myself to death or if it's just this point in any dedicated lifestyle change that your mind starts playing games with you.  I've found myself having conversations in my head similar to, "hey, you only lost 2.6 pounds the first round, maybe this program isn't working for you".  Or "maybe you aren't losing weight because you're starving yourself", which I think is not the case because I'm never hungry.  Anyway, something inside me is either lazy or afraid to fully commit to this program.  I know it was a huge let down to not have lost big the first 21 days and I hate the idea that I might just be losing 2.6 pounds(or less) every 21 day cycle.  That will take me 10 months to get to my goal and that just bites!  It's really a strange inner turmoil the decision that I have to make daily, convincing myself that even if I'm not losing significant weight, this exercise is so good for me for so many reasons.  It makes me feel better about myself, gives me something to look forward to anticipating the awesome toned body I'm going to have and it helps me clear my mind.  For just 30 minutes every day, I get to focus on... nothing.  Just the raw physical exhaustion of pushing myself to the limit every day for 30 minutes.  No decisions to make, no one to direct, I can just step back and command my body to do something and it does. 

I love sweating.  It makes me feel alive, like I'm accomplishing something.  Maybe that's why I'm expecting to see results, because I have been sweating buckets!  Well, regardless of the visible physical results, I am becoming stronger.  Both physically and mentally.

And after that lower body workout, I am really feeling it physically, in my BUM!  :)

Happy Sweating!