I get stronger.
I hate the 21 day fix extreme. I really do, but I've noticed it challenges me in more than one way and I love a good challenge. I've been doing it for 20 days now and I still have a moment of hesitation and dread before pressing play... every... single... day. No joke. I can think of a million and a half reasons of why I don't have to do the workout each day, but the fact that each time I finish a workout I feel like I've completed a mini marathon gives me the get up and go to get her done! The sweat dripping down my forehead and arms is such a feeling of accomplishment. I am a very visual person and SEEING the sweat means that I'm doing it right and it feels great!
Two weeks ago I hit a really hard point in my life, as a wife, mommy and a human being. It was a lot of crap I was working through and trying to figure out what my place was among all the muck. My workouts took a real hit and I skipped four days as I could hardly even get myself and the kids through the day, let along drag my bum through a tough workout. It was probably exactly what I needed, but I just couldn't do it. I was too sad, too tired and too frustrated to add one more thing to my list of "to do's". Once that week was over and I picked up all the pieces and put myself back together, I realized that my life is not in my control and it's really frustrating for me and makes a person realize how vulnerable we are. I didn't handle my difficulty as well as I could, I mean, my workouts ceased, my diet just happened and every night if I made it to bed alive, I was ok with that. And you know what? Sometimes that NEEDS to happen and you need to be ok with it. If you just need to survive and skip out on the world, it's OK. After the four days, I got back up on the horse and am feeling so much better now. I feel like I have even more reason to work my tush off and to be strong for myself and those around me. I'm not doing this for those around me, I'm doing it for myself, but by taking care of myself, I know I'll do a better job at all my jobs :)
I love how I feel after a hard workout and I'm going to continue to do this. And if I need to take a week off because crap happens, I'm going to take that week. Then I'll gather myself up and be stronger than before. I really feel like every time I fall, I rise stronger.
Tomorrow is day 21!!! I'm so excited and nervous to weigh and take pictures. I did go and retrieve that scale after I tossed it out the window. Figured I really did want some sort of number. Oh! and my pants are falling off!!! So, that's awesome! I've never been so thrilled at spending lots of money on Calvin Klein jeans only to not fit them two months later. Lol! That's supposed to happen when you workout, lose weight, right? Awesome!!!
Keep working out and happy sweating!!!
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