I have had a very rough week... to say the least. I have been super stressed, exhausted and frustrated among MANY other things all out of my control. This hit me really hard when it came to sticking to the 21 day fix workouts and eating plan. I just didn't have the time or energy to think that far ahead when it came to preparing foods or to give it the energy it takes to do the exercise program. So I bombed. BIG TIME! For four days straight, I could not find it in myself to get back up on the horse and make this fit into my hectic stressful day. I couldn't and I didn't want to, because quite frankly, I didn't want to add one more thing to my already very painfully crowded brain. You might wonder what I was doing over the past four days...ok, here goes: eating pizza, eating Cheeseburgers, eating french fries, chicken Tenders(yum!), drinking wine, drinking more wine, eating HALF a key lime pie(all by myself), corn dogs, beer, you name it, I probably ate it. The interesting part of these horrible four days of food was, I wasn't binge eating, but eating out of convenience, because I was too busy to prep and actually THINK of what I was going to have. Part of me was eating this food to spite the diet, because I had already fallen off the band wagon and hey, why not...but mostly it was because it takes time to prepare healthful meals and it takes brain power to make healthy decisions instead of eating whatever is in front of you. And honestly, when you're so tired and beat down, I didn't give a crap about what I was eating because I was just done. Done with all my struggles and I started to look at the 30 minute workout as just another thing on my to-do list, instead of "me time". A refresher and breather for ME.
Today, I started again with the workout and eating healthy and I'm hoping to do better for the rest of this 21 day fix extreme round, especially since I have high hopes for results. Although, realistically speaking, I might've just crushed my chances at a huge difference this round because of this last bought with my food demons. Was it worth it? At the time, it was damn delicious! But looking back, I'm sad that I added that much more time to my workout to burn those short enjoyed calories.
I've never been an emotional eater. Emotional drinker, yes, but eater, no. So this was very strange for me to see how crazy I was off the diet. I felt chaotic and completely out of my skin and I didn't like it one bit. It was really an odd side of me that I had never seen before. My eating was really reflecting what I was going through mentally and physically with the chaos I was experiencing.
Let's pray that this clears up and my life becomes much more calm.
Happy sweating!!!
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